Hello, fellow friends. Though I know it is just only me who will be reading this but who cares. Writing ease down my pain so much, at least at the moment. Four months to go until we reach the end of 2017. In a blink of an eye isn't it? True, many ups and downs I have been through out this year and I must say it was not easy. I almost give up at one point but hey guess who was able to stand still and fight those cruel people and world out there? Sometimes you will have to stand on your own two feet to survive.
As for diploma, I almost, almost about to end it, InsyaAllah by the end of this year. I will need to struggle a bit more for my final semester. Tbh my CGPA is not satisfying. I kind of distracted for the past few years, and you know what I am letting it go now. And hopefully, I am able to focus more, at least for my final semester. (p/s: I'm waiting for my short sem results atm, pls pray I'll pass all subject!)
Dad, of course, wanted me to pursue my degree, me too. And I guess I'm ready. At second thought, I wanted to work and ditch studying (degree) because I wanted to get married. But after all that happened, I really lose hopes. I feel like he's not there anymore. I can't feel him. We weren't fighting neither having a conflict. Maybe he wasn't there when I really needed him. But that's fine...
And back to having degree, So I decided to continue it, maybe just maybe in different fields. I do not really enjoy studying what I studied at the moment but I will have to finish it, there's no turning back. And that's why a wise decision is important or else you will end up like this, full of regrets. But I'm fine with it, I guess that's just normal and common for any other people. InsyaAllah kalau ada rezeki, I will keep on studying and if not I will spend my alone time travelling until my jodoh come and purpose me in time. Till then.
-25-8-2017-