Hi. Salam 9th syawal. did not really enjoy my raya this year my broken hearted did not heal, still. sigh. created a new blogspot again and again, trying to throw the cloudy and start something new. currently a bad day for me. last night conversation was hurt so bad. i knew its gonna happen in the first place but.. some things need to be untold sometimes. you have your own life but you had me and your life is with me. i should at least need to know a bit about you. what's a relationship hiding a thing from each other? . to be honest i'd rather leave than being hurt alone but its not as easy as i thought. can we just go through without starting all over? i am really tired. im scared. scared of getting the same pain, the trauma i do not want to feel again. i never thought love would be as complicated as this or maybe i am just too young for it, to think about it. i hope that explains the pain. im being over dramatic because i take this relationship seriously. i never been in this kind of relationship, it hurts so much. i broke my brain thinking the next step instead of studying for my final exam next week. i bet i will fail again. too stressed out. i need help.